Thursday, January 21, 2010

One Month In

You on December 22, 2009
You on January 22, 2010

Dear Hayden,

Today you are one month old and - whew! - the time has flown by and yet it is so hard to imagine our life without you in it. On Monday, you will have your one month appointment. I'm excited to see how much you've "officially" grown in height and weight. You have done so much in a month!
  • You are 22.5 inches long using the tummy time mat measuring tape (from 19.5 inches)

  • You are almost ten pounds according to the bathroom scale (from 7 lbs 7 oz)
  • You have beautiful blue eyes and are a miniature version of your Daddy.

  • You have the LONGEST fingers and toes - your feet are as big as some other babies feet who are 3 and 4 months old. I think this means you will be tall. You definitely have the Frohling paws. :) I love when you hold onto my finger - it's so sweet!

  • You are now wearing size 1 diapers and size 0-3 month clothes. You grew out of newborn diapers and clothes at two weeks. You were never able to wear newborn shoes or booties.

  • You are reaching your milestones like a champ.

  • You are lifting and turning your head - I love that you head butt my shoulder or your Daddy's when you are hungry for the tata. You also eat like a champ.

  • You have had your first bath (sponge and real). You were NOT a fan of the sponge bath or the sling thing that went in the tub. You love having a bath now - especially in the basement bathroom rather that than the kitchen sink. I think it's the warmness. The lotion massages are growing on you.

  • You are starting to lose your baby hair. You have this one hair in the middle of the top of your head that is white blonde and is about two inches long and sticks straight up. I cut it today because your Daddy and I keep thinking it's one of our hairs that landed on you and I don't want to accidentally pull it out and hurt you.

  • I have to cut your nails every few days - I filed them for the first two weeks and now use the infant scissors. I do it when you are napping.

  • On Thursday, you took your first nap in your crib - you still sleep in the bassinet next to our bed at night. Mommy tried to put you in your crib last night and I physically couldn't do it. I like having you in our room next to use - plus it makes the nighttime feedings MUCH easier for me. I am so grateful for the video monitor - watching you sleep is so wonderful!

  • You have shown us your first smile and grin - which makes my heart break into a million pieces. It lights up your WHOLE entire face - your eyes crinkle and your dimple shows. I love it when you did it while your breastfeed - I think you are telling me "mmm - this is good milk mommy."

  • You had your first cold :( you handled it like a champ - it made Mommy feel so bad (and Daddy too). You were so stuffed up and congested - we gave you steam baths at night, saline drops, elevated the head of your mattress, let you sleep on our chests, bought a humidifier, nasal aspirated your nose (which you HATE) and then tried Q-Tips to get the snot and buggers out (the Q Tips work best and you don't hate them as much - Mommy is very careful when she does it). We are still using the humidifier and saline drops. The Q tips make me nervous so I don't use those unless I absolutely have to because nothing else is clearing it up. It breaks my heart when you wake yourself up because you can't breathe. It is getting much better now - I will be grateful when it gets warmer and we don't have to use the heater so much.

  • You love to have staring contests with your Daddy and me.

  • You talk so much - you like to have conversations with us.

  • You prefer to sleep on your side. If we put you on your back, you move to your side. It's the cutest thing! You also like to look left more than right - does this mean you'll be left handed?

  • The Ocean Wonders Seahorse and Aquarium can quiet you down at night when you are restless. The best remedy for calming you is you snuggling against your Daddy or me. Daddy does it best. I love how you just burrow into us - you are a snuggle bug and I hope you stay that way!

  • You already have a favorite blanket - it's a brown polka dot one from Target that mommy's friend Deb got you.

  • You are not a fan of shopping - when we are out and about, you are good for about two hours - then you want to go home. I'm okay with that (and it's better on our pocketbook for sure).

  • You LOVE when we read or sing to you. Your favorite books right now are Dr. Seuss' ABC's, Goodnight Moon and Baby's Happy Faces.

  • You had your first playdate on Wednesday with our friend Lindsay and her sweet daughter Brynn. We're thinking of arranging your marriage - what do you think?

  • Your are on a pretty good schedule most nights. Right now, you go to bed about 10:30 and wake up around midnight, 3 and 6 to feed. After your 6 feed, you are up for a couple of hours and you like to snuggle with your Daddy.

  • You are lactose intolerant, so I have had to change my diet. I am eating much healthier now.

  • You have had so many visitors and have so many people who love you! We are beyond blessed!!

  • You are such a wonderful baby and a miracle from God. We love you more than words can ever, ever say!!
  • You have changed your Daddy and me and the girls in so many ways.

  • Your Daddy wants to see you the second he comes home from work.

  • The girls watch over you. Addison hates it when you cry and makes sure whoever is holding you is doing a good job. Izzie likes to be in whatever room you are in.


Sunday, January 17, 2010

On Being a Mommy

No one could have told me...well they did tell me and I didn't get it until I became a Mommy to Hayden...

...that the second Hayden was born I fell absolutely and completely head over heels in love with him and even deeper in love with Chip.

...that if it was physically possible, I would have jumped off the gurney to hold him the minute I heard his first cry.

...that the sound of his cry causes me physical pain - hair stand up on the back of my neck, my heart lurches, I leak milk and tears.

...when he just wants me - when the smell of me instantly calms him - I feel so happy and like a supermom.

...when he just wants his daddy - that makes me so happy too.

...that I would be so concerned over the color and consistency of his poop.

...that I would give up eating anything to make him feel better.

...that I would cry so many tears of happiness and helplessness.

...that Hayden's smile is the best thing on Earth - it lights up the room.

...that we would be blessed with such an amazing baby and that the second we had him - I knew this is what God wants me to do with my life - to love our little man and grow him in the Lord.

...that every penny and every second we spent trying to have him was 100% worth it and I would do it again in a heartbeat.

...that it makes me so happy Hayden is a mini-me of Chip.

...that this life we have - it's abundantly awesome and the small things really are the small things.

...that I cherish every moment with my family.

...that it would be so hard to put him down in his bassinet, in his car seat, in his swing, pack & play because all I want to do is look at him.

...that I would willingly get up early from a massage to feed my crying baby and, 5 minutes into feeding him, he passed out. We curled up on an armchair and took a nap while my Mom got her massage. Doing that and having that moment was worth more than the massage.

...that my life would feel so very complete.

...that I pray every night for my son and his future wife - I pray that he feels the same about us as I do about my parents and my in laws.

What about you? How has becoming a mommy changed your life?

Monday, January 11, 2010

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Hayden's Birth Story

On Tuesday, December 22nd, my Mom, Chip and I arrived at the hospital at 6:00 a.m. for me to be induced. By 6:30 a.m., the pitocin drip was started and I was 90% effaced and at a 3. Our doctor informed me that she would break my water after she was done with a procedure in the OR that was set to begin at 7:30a.m. Over the next couple of hours, the pitocin was increased and contractions were starting.

The contractions started getting painful around 10 a.m. so we decided I would go ahead and get the epidural before my water broke. At 10:45, I was all set with the epidural and Chip came back in the room (they kicked him out while they got the epidural set - it took a bit as I have really tight back ligaments and small vertebrae spaces). I was so nervous about getting an epidural, but it truly was not painful. I told the nurse that I had to use the restroom before the epidural, but she told me to wait until after the epidural kicked in and the pressure on my bladder would not be as bad and they would drain my bladder. When Chip came back in the room, I told him I thought I had maybe wet myself as I felt a cold sensation in that area. He handed me tissue to check and then there was this huge gush that came out of me. I thought I was wetting the bed and couldn't stop crying and laughing because it was funny, but I was so embarrassed. I called the nurse and she came in and checked me and said that my water had broke. About a minute later the doctor came in to break my water and found it had already broken.

They checked me again and I was progressing slowly, but steadily. I was dilating by about 1 cm per hour. My Mom, Dad, Chip and I all waited around, watched TV and waited some more. At 5, the doctor came back and said I was at an 8 and she expected me to be at a 10 and to be ready to push by 7. At 7, she returned and I was still at an 8. She said they would give me until 8:30 p.m. and, if there was no change, then we would do a c section. She said it felt like my pelvis wasn't spreading enough and the baby's head might be stuck.

When she returned at 8:30, I was still at an 8. We decided that a c section would be best for the baby and me. My epidural medicine had just run out, so they gave me the medicine to numb my lower half for the c section. Chip got into his scrubs and they wheeled me to the OR. I felt tugging, pulling, a ton of pressure and then, at 9:40 p.m., we heard the sweetest noise ever, our son's first cry. We both fell instantly in love with our miracle. To see my husband holding our son was a sight that brought tears to my eyes. We were here - we have a healthy baby boy who is a miniature replica of his Daddy and our life feels complete. 7 pounds, 7 ounces and 19.5 inches of perfection. When Chip was holding him, Hayden stuck out his tongue at his Daddy and they exchanged looks of love. When I FINALLY got to hold him (an hour after he was born because they were stitching me up), he immediately went for my chest and latched on like a champ. Even the nurses were impressed at his super sucking ability.

Now - 12 days later - I am still amazed at our blessing. I am amazed at my life. I am amazed by the incredible man I married who is already such a wonderful Daddy. He's a natural. I thank God every night for our miracle, for my life, for all that He has given us. I am truly thankful.

I love you Hayden!