Faithfully God is providing ways for me to pursue my passion and make it a reality. He is showing me His ever-present love. I have said all along, and truly believe, that if what I write helps just one person, then I have fulfilled God's purpose for me.
Writing the last post was painfully hard. I had to open old wounds to show how He has made my mess into a wonderful miracle. I had several people email me privately to share their own stories because of what I wrote. The emails made me cry and think of the enormity of God and His love for each of us. These amazing stories, some of which are not yet finished, affirmed my purpose and encouraged me to continue to be honest with my struggles.
God has opened two doors for me. One is a group at our church. I reached out to the leader of a small group called Our Hope. It is a group for people who have suffered loss through miscarriage, infertility, adoption and fostering. God hasn't worked out the details yet of what will happen with this, but I am 100% confident He will. This will be a way for me to reach out to believers and be a source of encouragement and love.
The other door is with the place that helped us conceive Hayden. We chose CARE carefully and after lots of prayer. I will be writing for their patient perspective blog. I am really excited about this opportunity to minister and help other couples who are going down or are on the IF road. I should have a post up for them very soon and I will post the link.
It's scary to step out of our comfort zones. I could very easily not ever mention anything about the struggle we went through to have Hayden. However, I would not be listening to my heart. When I look at the precious eight month old playing on the floor of our living room I think, "How could I NOT share this gift with others? " God is using me and our story to help others. He is using this to help me grow and become the secure woman He intends for me to be. This is giving me a chance to help others and is helping me tenfold in the process. I am so grateful to each of you for following me on this journey. I appreciate your comments, emails, prayers and support. Thank you!